Friday, February 10, 2012

Getting better all the time

Quote du jour: Develop an interest in life as you see it; the people, things, literature, music — the world is so rich, simply throbbing with rich treasures, beautiful souls and interesting people. Forget yourself.

Site du jour: The Perfect in our Imperfections blog wrote a good post on Things that get in the way.

Not my best week, but I suppose it could be worse. Better than last weekend. Managed to go almost completely cold carrot this week. I don't know if it was the smartest move budget-wise, but I bought a big container of pre-washed salad and supplemented it with salad toppings from the deli counter in the cafe. Okay, yes, I did slip in an ounce of grilled chicken once, but that was it. From the point of view of being good, it's much easier if I don't have meat in the house so I am giving myself a pass on buying food from work this time.

I really feel like I'm being obsessive about the diet, but that springs from fear. I do not want to go through pain like that again. Usually I take the absence of pain for granted, but right now I am profoundly grateful for it. I actually managed to sit through a whole meeting - an entire hour sitting down! - without having to get up because it hurt. I am betting that my body will be nicer to me if I avoid inflammatory comfort foods.

It's easier to be good when you feel bad. Since I've started to feel better, the old habits have come slinking back in, acting casual like they've been around the whole time. Last night on the way home it was cold and dark and depressing. I really wanted to stop off and pick up something baaad to eat, something high-fat with no nutritional value. Maybe even get a bottle of wine. My inner child was whining and pouting and throwing a tantrum. (You'd think it would have grown up with the rest of me. Can't wait until it hits adolescence.) Managed to give my inner self a time out, i.e. I told it we'd deal with it when I got home. Then, of course, the inner slug spoke up and pointed out that it was dark and cold and rainy and who wants to go out in that? Thus inertia saved the day.

Still going to go Cold Carrot today.

Exercise du jour: one gentle walk at lunch.

Posted from DPad on my iPad


EcoCatLady said...

Wait a minute... you're beating yourself up over one ounce of grilled chicken?!? Seriously?!? Come on girl, you need protein!

ari_1965 said...

Glad the back has flared down again.

Shelley said...

"Inertia saved the day" - I can relate to that! Or as I call it, "I'm too lazy to put on pants" - whatever saves us from ourselves, right?

messymimi said...

My "inner slug" salutes yours, and says you don't have to go out in the rain if you don't want to.

Keith said...

Totally off topic. How is DPad working out for you? I'm looking for something to blog from the iPad with. So far it's been a bit hit and miss. I think it depends on whether blogger had coffee with breakfast or not.

London Mabel said...

My inner slug is very helpful.

Julie said...

Wow, I know what you mean. Not a banner few days for me either. I moved, but the food situation was NOT great.
Tomorrow is a new day, and we shall begin again.

SO glad you are feeling less pain.

Gina said...

I can completely relate to this post. Pain vs no pain and the complacency associated with it...then more pain. :-P

Dang it, I wish you didn't have to go through this. I'm curious about the no-meat thing. (I miss so much when I'm gone from blogland).