Tuesday, November 24, 2009
The incident of the cupcakes in the night time
What can I say. They were there. (Which is in itself odd, since I do NOT buy cupcakes or twinkies or whatever. Must have been leftover from a PMS-craving shopping session.)
Whatever. They were there, I ate them. No guilt.
I don't like the way tracking my food has made me more aware of food. I refuse to feel any guilt for the silly/decadent/spineless behavior. What the hell. Done now. Moving on.
Or maybe I don't like tracking my food because it's making me more aware of my habits? Whatever.
What I can't figure out is why simply joining Weight Watchers would have caused me to lose over two pounds this week. It's not as if I did anything I haven't been doing all along. The only thing I did different this week was write it down. Not that I'm complaining about losing these pounds. Merely puzzled.
Physical evidence of the change -- on a whim, I tried on Those Pants, the ones that I didn't fit into and certainly couldn't walk around in a couple months ago. They fit. I can walk, talk, and sit while wearing them.
Maybe I should've tried them on in the interim. I figured that since the scale was telling me such depressing numbers, I wouldn't even bother testing the pants.
Bloody hell, maybe I really did gain muscle somewhere along the line? I'm going to do measurements, see what the inch report is now.
The meeting tonight:
Um, nice, but puzzling. I didn't want to ask too many dumb questions, but I wondered. Why did she hand me a bookmark? Am I supposed to use it for some virtuous purpose? I got a little star-shaped sticker marked 'bravo' -- was that for losing the two pounds? I'm confused!
Still, excellent meeting, and I say that even though I loathe all meetings on principle. The talk was about people who use food to show love, and how you can try to make them feel loved without getting stuffed to the gills with food that you'd rather not eat. Since my mother feels that if I don't eat her food, I must not love her (if I don't eat her food, she's a bad mother?), this hit home.
Exercise du jour:
Couch to 5k week 1 day 1 Brisk five-minute warm up walk. Then alternate 60 seconds of jogging and 90 seconds of walking for a total of 20 minutes.
Jogged back from the Weight Watchers meeting. How smugly virtuous can you get?
Cupcake imagery courtesy of